198) The Rain

There is a big tree right in front of my school. It has been left rusty orange and red by fall, and it is where the kids line up to go home after school is finished for the day. Today I walked up to the school just as a big gust of wind hit the tree, sending down a rain of orange and red to the kids waiting below. The kids waited in line jumping and screaming with hands to the sky.

197) Roll 7 (caution)

I put a caution notice because I fear some people may find some of the images disturbing. This roll is from a few weeks ago, and has a pretty wide variety of images.

196) An Edit

Here is a shot from the previous post that I spent a little time editing in photo shop. I really like the original picture, but I like this one even more. Lately I have become kind of obsessed with medium format cameras and I have been thinking about getting one. A Holga would run about 20-30 dollars and it would probably be fun to use and produce some interesting images. So I edited this shot with the Holga in mind.

195) Fall Flowers

194) The Disappointment

The short version of the story is this: I had auditioned and been selected as a model for a fashion show in the Seoul Collection during Seoul Fashion week (currently happening). Everything was lined up: I went to the fittings and rehearsal. I lost a few kilograms (probably mostly muscle). I knew the clothes I would wear and the order I would walk, even the models standing before and after me. I cancelled plans, stayed in on the weekends, practiced and studied walking. I was in the hand-out and in the video being played during the show- everything was lined up.



Then, the morning of the show I received a phone call from my friend (the director of the show) informing me I was cut. The reason; unknown. Shit. What a disappointment.



Had it been any other time besides the day of the show I could have understood the cut. But the morning of the show... really? I have had one similar disappointment in the past- but in that case there was really no one to blame except maybe myself.



My junior year of college I was in the national track and field meet. I was ranked 10th in the nation at the time. Then after a practice jump in the warm-ups I sprained my ankle. Nothing can prepare you for that kind of crushing disappointment. Literally months (in a broader sense years) of training and practice and anticipation down the drain. Wasted. That one was the worst.



Back to the fashion show disappointment- after a couple big chocolate bars, a lot of sleep, and some hard work in the gym I am feeling better. The kids make me feel better too. I haven't really been in the mood to be with friends, but the kids really seem to help. They have no clue about any of this kind of thing in life- maybe that's what makes them so good at helping to get over it.



Billy told me to "make some art" so I brought my camera to school today. The digital, not the film- I needed some instant results. Gave the kids a bunch of cookies and cakes and let them play games all sugared up all day. I tried to get them feeling like I wanted to feel- and it helped. So in the end it turned out to be a pretty good birthday for me today.

193) Roll 6

Here are some highlights from roll 6 on the G1. This roll was a little more experimental than the others, and I am pretty happy with it. I have been sticking to the lack of photo editing with these shots and this camera.








Lately I have been really trying to get the shot I want on the camera, and not change anything on the computer. With the exception of the cropped shot and some small contrast adjustments to a few of these, the shots should be the same as they are on the film.

192) Fall

It finally feels like fall is here. The past week or so have been beautiful! Perfect daytime temps and nights and mornings that are just a little chilly. I think every year I love fall a little more.




Last week I had a few days off. I used one of those days to wake up really early and head to the park to check things out. It was really nice to be there when just one or two other people were around- and catch the early morning peacefulness that can get lost in a big city.

191) Roll 5

A week in my life- back-alleys, a birthday party, a rooftop, studio, and kids